“I want to live the most vividly decorated temporary life that I can. I don’t just mean physically; I mean emotionally, spiritually, intellectually. I don’t want to be afraid of bright colors, or new sounds, or big love, or risky decisions, or strange experiences, or weird endeavors, or sudden changes, or even failure.” ~Elizabeth Gilbert
I spent many years being afraid to make mistakes. My brand of perfectionism prevented me from exploring the world. I didn’t want to be a beginner at anything because beginners make mistakes. I can’t even tell you for sure what I thought would happen if I made a mistake but I imagine booby traps and ridicule were involved.
After a number of years working with my healer to unravel my “stuff,” I began to realize I wasn’t really living, I was existing. It was a lot of being and not a lot of living. I made a decision to pursue living and the feelings of being alive, not safe and sound, but excited and engaged. My transformation wasn’t overnight. I still have a knee-jerk resistance to some growth opportunities, but I know if I am patient with myself I will come around to confronting the next Boogey man in the closet. And while confronting fear is still not my favorite thing to do, I am committed to living a life that is exciting and engaging. I want to feel the thrill of risk, the disappointment of defeat, the grief of loss, and the triumph of success. I just want to feel…all the feelings. Feeling is living.
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Laura Rowe is an intuitive energy healer. Living in Portland, Oregon, Laura founded The Vital Spirit, an entity that seeks to be an instrument in the ongoing shift in human consciousness. Laura works with adults who identify as highly sensitive persons or empaths and are committed to learning about who they are and how they want to express themselves in this world. She helps these individuals clear energetic blocks, release limiting beliefs, thrive in their business/careers and navigate interpersonal relationships so they can live life to the fullest.